Limbo and other crazy dances

9/15/2009 10:43:00 PM | 0 Comments

I've finished filling out my paperwork for the new WLC.  I see my regular doc tomorrow and will have her complete the stuff she needs to.  I'm sure the wait after submitting my paperwork will be endless....
I'm having trouble staying focused on the band stuff.  I read LBT, look at success stories, learn new stuff.  But I don't have any real excitement about it anymore.  I guess having had a surgery date made it all seem more real.  Now, who knows?  I thought I'd be so much further along by now.  Urghhh.

I really, really hate that fall is coming so quickly.  The leaves are turning and falling into my pool.  I'm not amused.  I hate closing the pool.  Funny though, I really like fall.  I love the whole holiday season.  I just figured by Christmas this year, I'd be into some new clothes.  Smaller clothes.  Crap.  I hate waiting.
I so need to get myself in gear.  I need to get to work on jewelry.  I just don't want to.  Maybe I need a pep talk.  I don't want to do the shows this year.  I'm worn out.  I'm totally drained from taking care of my family this past year.  I don't have anything left to be creative.  I'm tapped out.  I can't face the thought of getting up at the crack of dawn and sitting thru long, boring days and not selling.  Last year was awful.  I don't think the economy is that much better this year.  I lost money last year.  So I'm not so eager to do that again.  Crap again.  I need a swift kick in the ass I guess.
I'm excited that so many people on LBT were talking about their blogs.  I love reading them.  I get a sense of what others are going thu and how they deal.  I know they'll be great support and inspiration to me when I finally get banded.  See, I said finally, not if....  But, when???  I want a band!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Not a rubber band though :)


Note to anyone who is reading my blog for the first time:  I swear I'm not usually so whiney and crazy.  I'm just frustrated.  I had a surgery date and then had it snatched from me.  Now I'm in limbo.

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